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I AM OBSESSING. IT IS NOT NICE THIS TIME.

Okay, first of all, guy trouble. I NOW FIND HIM SO CREEPY I DON'T THINK WE CAN BE FRIENDS. I SAW HIM TWICE IN THE PAST TWO DAYS AND IT IS LIKE HE GOES OUT AT THE SAME TIME AS ME. YES, I KNOW, OBSESSED MUCH? YES, REALLY. IT'S JUST THAT HE IS SO CREEPY NOW AND I JUST WANT TO AVOID HIM, GOD, WHY DID I ADD HIM ON FACEBOOK?

I HATE FACEBOOK NOW.

The only reason I will go on there now is to answer other people's comments and hit Faye with a metaphorical pillow. Yeah.

Now, for much more harem-related-ness: I WATCHED HEROES. I WANTED TO TEAR SYLAR'S SHIRT OFF AND DO NAUGHTY, DIRTY, ENTIRELY ENJOYABLE THINGS TO HIM.

(The picture's not from the episode but MEH. IT IS ENOUGH)

GOOD NEWS!!!

*cough* That is all

Spoilers - Do I Like Them?

Really, I don't know. I used to like them, because, well, I had to get used to them (living in a completely different country from where most - okay, all - of my favourite shows are aired first). Plus patience is not really one of my virtues.

But when hearing the 'latest' (seriously, I swear I've heard it before) spoiler for Heroes, I'm justing hating on spoilers. Urgh...just...if one of the characters died - NO MATTER WHO - I would very sad. It used to be that Sylar was the only reason I watched Heroes, but now I realise that I love everyone. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?

My brother's (probable) response to this spoiler: Peter. He's emo. He's an idiot. He should just crawl into a corner and die.

Now this has provoked many a laugh from me and my sister because Luke can be seriously sarcastically funny when he wants to be, but I'm not sure I want him to die just yet. Unless it was in a truly spectacular save-the-world kind of way. But even then.

My sister's (probable) response: I CAN'T CHOOSE.

I HEAR YOU. I have this feeling that she will also like Claire in volume 5 (and since Claire was the one she chose when I told her this rumour LAST volume) so...she'll probably be thinking the same thing as me (feel free to deny this, if you're reading this).

Okay. Reasons why I don't want anyone of them to die.
Matt: THIS IS NOT JUST BECAUSE HE'S PLAYED BY GREG GRUNBERG. Out of all of the characters, he's the most normal. Just an ordinary guy. Plus he's A MIND READER, and I've always had a weakness for them, okay? So, no.
Mohinder: WHERE IS HE? I have never particularly liked him (and did not see why other people do) but then volume 4 came along and WHAM. I actually liked him. Obviously I was the only one. So, no.
Sylar: I HAVE SEEN SO MANY PEOPLE HATE ON HIM. It's probably just me, but could someone please explain why? Is it because he's suddenly not the boogeyman, the guy in the baseball cap, creeping through the shadows? Or is it because people get obsessed with him, and this really puts people off? Why? I don't understand. Please, someone explain it to me.
I don't want him to die. I don't think I'd cry (unless the deaths scene was REALLY well done, and knowing ZQ, it probably will be) but it would be a possibility.
But if it is him I'd like him to go in a mighty save-the-world kind of way. Just saying.
HRG: NO, JUST NO. I DON'T EVEN NEED A REASON.
Claire: THEY CANNOT KILL OFF THE CHARACTER I HAVE STARTED TO LOVE.
...although I wouldn't put it past them...
Hiro: He's the best possibility, what with the brain tumour and all. I would be sad to see him go. He's the happy character, the one who actually likes his powers. WE MUST HAVE THE HAPPY.

Also, to all those people out there. You probably don't know who you are, but my sister and I loved Ando way before the news of his death in that Five Years Gone episode. BECAUSE, THAT LINE. "We're not special, we're Japanese." I MEAN, OMG. How could you not love him after that? Especially since the Japanese are pretty darn special. What with all that technological stuff they do.

Of course there are the minor characters. But I certainly don't want them to die.

I get far too obsessed with this stuff. Maybe I should just talk about something else.

Brian Dietzen. He's the actor who plays Jimmy Palmer in NCIS. He's married, and has a daughter and son. Lol, the cool things wikipedia tells you.

Yeah, that didn't last long. Oh well.
STAR TREK.

It's Oficial

I have a girlcrush. I know. Kinda weird. But somehow Claire has grown on me. Not like David Tennant, or Tracy, with their friendly fungus type ness. But somehow...different. I think she's really pretty (which, okay, I did before but meh) and, well, yeah. She's turning out to be my new favourite character this season (never of course topping Sylar, because he'll always be top of the list).

Claire is certainly not as annoying as PETER. OHMYGODS. YOU ARE AN IDIOT!

And I'm not actually talking about the sudden acceptance and excitement over finding out your "brother" has multiple powers. That, I can understand.

BUT THE WALL?! EMMA?! SHE'S DEAF, YOU IDIOT! REALISE THIS, ALREADY!

AND ALSO, WHY DIDN'T YOU ANSWER THAT PHONE??!??! I DON'T EVEN SUPPORT PETER/NATHAN AND YET THAT DISGUSTED ME. URGH.

And yet I still prefer Peter/Sylar to Sylar/Claire. Hmm. Interesting. I like Sylar/Claire friendship, but not a romantic relationship. That would be too creepy. Plus, I have to admit that Sylar is a creepy serial killer, etc, etc and so I don't think Claire would ever even consider him as a potential boyfriend/husband/lifemate. Just...*shudder* she's too smart for that, thank you very much.

Peter, as I have mentioned before, is an idiot. So he's fair game. Plus, you know, two hot guys together...can't go wrong with that :)

Guilt, It's A Killer, Man

I don't know why but this is really the place where I can just post my thoughts. It's weird. I don't know why but I can't really do that over in livejournal. Sigh. Urgh.

Anywho.

PEMMA. IS STILL NOT THE SHIZ (PYLAR IS)

Anywho.

I sort of want to write the Alex/Monica and Sandra/Janice chapters of the Unsure fic.

Maybe I'll do that tomorrow. Hmm. I have time between classes, I guess.

I have this new idea for an ongoing fic (which means it will probably never be written) where Claire wakes up in a desert, naked. Then it goes to three days ago, when Peter comes to her and tells her that Sylar disappeared right in front of him. Alex rings her and tells her the same thing happened to Monica (yes, Alex/Monica might be a new favourite het pairing of mine). While she's on the phone however, Peter disappears. Okay, so it's a little like the Rapture, I believe it's called, but not. They've actually been transported to other dimensions.

-Sylar has become Lex Luthor, although he's called Gabriel Gray (funny how both their fathers were played by the same actor)

-Peter becomes Clark Kent, except he's called Peter Petrelli still, Arthur resembles Jonathan Kent, Angela resembles Martha

-They meet up and continue their relationship; however to everyone else it's quite scandalous. Elle (aka Lana) is shocked, and a little miffed that they're not fighting over her anymore

-Claire is John Shepard (Lt. Colonel Bennet), trapped on an unknown planet, she has to find the nearest stargate and transport home. Elle is Elizabeth Weir. Gretchen might very well be Dr. McKay (Dr. Burg).

-Alex is Angel, with Noah as Doyle and Tracy as Cordelia; together they make Angel Investigations.

-Monica, I don't know. Tough one.

I also want to actually write my Peter's Disappearances/Lyle's League of Superheroes/Peter Knows That Nathan Isn't Nathan fic. This new volume has given me so much ammunition. Peter's avoidance of his brother, despite the declaration of love at the end of the last volume; his easy acceptance of the sudden influx of powers to flying Nathan; the pause before he answered Samuel's question about whether he'd ever lost a brother. Yeah, okay, not much. But they spoke volumes.

New pairings I find sorta intriguing:

Samson/Arthur - I know, I was shocked too, but I like it as a sort of past-relationship, and also an explanation towards why they turned out the way they did
Alex/Monica - I thank James' like of the guy who plays Alex for this pairing. It would never have occurred to me otherwise. But now that it has, I see a lot of potential

Sandra/Janice - the wives, the powerless wives, oh what they'd get up to while their husbands were off doing who-knows-what. Sweet, really, I'd like to see it

I don't know why but I'd like to see Micah/Someonewhoisn'tMolly. Like maybe Micah/Lyle. Or Micah/Simon. Or Micah/Monty. Yeah, I know, slash but I'm getting a little sick of Mocah-oh-it's-so-cute-and-sweet and urgh. Please, gag me.

Also, I've never been a big fan, but this volume is giving me definite Peter/Noah fics. And yet I see no influx of them at the heroes_slash community over in LJ, just more Sylar/Mohinder (bleh, please get over it) and Peter/Nathan (now even I'm getting sick of these, and I really get this way).

Hmm, I've noticed a pattern. Sylar/Mohinder is the most popular Sylar pairing. Peter/Nathan is the most popular Peter pairing, with Peter/Claude being the second most favourite (probably these shippers are the ones who don't like incest). It's kinda weird.

I've also noticed that a lot of Peter fics are from the point of view of Nathan, especially when there are Peter/OCs (other characters). It's kinda annoying. I mean, I have nothing against Nathan, I actually really like him, but he's starting to become like Claire used to be. Mooching into my pairings and all. Although I have to say I prefer any Nathan pairing to Sylar/Claire or Peter/Claire (I do not see the appeal).

I wish I could write a really dark, twisted Peter/Sylar fic that completely gets their characters, takes into account all the canon, deals with the sexuality of the characters, and is completely fucked up. And yet, I know I will never write one like it. Because I'm a fan of the happy ending, and dark, twisted, fucked up fics usually don't end with a less cheesy version of "happily ever after." Sigh.

Well, I think I've discussed everything that's been bugging me. It's strange how none of my other favourite shows ever get this reaction off me. Urgh.

Possibly this is a rant...

Just wanted to talk about a few things.

First, I don't know why, but I sorta want a Milo/Zach fic, where they've been secretly dating throughout Heroes and Star Trek, and all the relationships that are really obvious (Milo/Adrian, Chris/Zach) were just decoys *sigh* I know, no one will ever write it, and I'm a bit scared to write it myself. Not because it's RPF or anything, just...well...I think I'd probably ruin it *sigh*

They are so adorable, don't you think?

Second, I'm stuck on my fic!baby. I haven't written much in awhile, and I know I'll have to go back and think about those sex scenes because I don't think I did them well at all...*sigh* Anyways, the fic!baby is stuck. Sylar kicks Peter out and I want him to wallow, and then possibly Claire comes to try and intervene (doesn't work, she doesn't even realise why he's wallowing). So he decides, after a drunken conversation with Mohinder, to go and hit on chicks/guys in a bar. He goes to a local bar, is crap at picking up chicks/guys because he always ends up talking about Peter.

After a wallow (in which he thinks about his names) he meets a stranger at the bar, who calls himself Erik (it's Claude, calling himself after a Claude Rains character), and they get talking. Eventually Erik tells him about this guy who he likes, but that the guy was always "Sylar this, Sylar that." Sylar realises that Peter does love him, goes to his apartment and tries to play his iPod really loud outside his window, just like John Cusack's character in Say Anything. Peter doesn't hear him because a) it's an iPod, not a big ass radio, b) he's drunk, and c) Peter isn't even there because he's gone over to Emma's to have a big cry. So Sylar goes home and wallows, maybe watches a few depressing movies. Like Moulin Rouge.

Things continue like this for a few weeks (I might add a Luke intervention, and a Lyle one as well), neither speaking to the other, until Claire returns from college, due to it being vacation time. She hosts a party. Peter and Sylar both come. Peter, nervous, goes over and talks to the band who reluctantly let him have the microphone (everyone knows of Peter's bad voice). He sings 'Two Is Better Than One" (or "Brown Eyes"), while gazing at Sylar, who joins him at the end. There is kissing.

Claire is surprised, but quickly aclimatises herself to the situation. Lyle laughs at her, she smiles sweetly and introduces him to Luke. They hit it off. Lyle, to get Claire back for daring to matchmake him, brings Zach over from the buffet. There is sparkage.

Other than that, I don't really know. I need to reference other romcoms *sigh* But I've got the general gist of it down now. Phew. Maybe I'll write some tomorrow.

Third, I'm writing the Heroes chapter for someone on fanfiction.net, completetherainbow. I have the general outline for it (Peter and Sylar are in a relationship, Sylar cheats constantly, Ella (the OC) comes along and Sylar is fascinated by her (gifts and mysteriousness). There are het sexytimes (I know! How could I?). However once Ella realises that Sylar loves only Peter, she sets him up by singing the song "Tell Him." There are boykisses (woo). However, Peter (who has seemed quite stable up til now) is VERY jealous and kidnaps her, basically ending up yelling at her and threatening her. Sylar "happens" upon them, and is impressed by Peter's possessiveness. He tells Ella that she's boring, pathetic, unloveable (channelling much?). Despite that he tries to take her power. Which is when the Doctor appears, to save her. Sylar shrugs, and there are slash sexytimes back at their apartment). Woo. Now I just have to write that.

Fourth, my fifth part to the Surviving the Apocalyse fanfic I have going with Clare from fanfiction.net. I have to write a speech telling my people about the magical bean bags I gathered to protect them from the coming apocalyse, show Clare the Peter/Sylar closet tapes, and possibly bring Claire into it, who will be delivering a message from her grandmother, Angela. She and the Gwen Club may have a tea party. Gretchen might appear.

Fifth, I am now officially a Claire/Gretchen shipper. Hayden wanted it, I must obey her wishes, especially if she continues not-mooshing into my ships. Good girl.

Isn't that a cute picture of her? Yes, my girlcrush on Hayden Panettiere is still going strong. Can't wait for Heroes tomorrow. Eeeee.

Sixth, I had a weird but strangely sweet (and sad) idea for a Samson/Arthur fanfic. Samson regrets nothing, not even the kiss, not even the relationship, not even the love. Yeah, sort of established relationship between Samson and Arthur, before they each got married. Sigh. And it does sort of explain how Arthur knew who Sylar was; he was Samson's son.Yeah. Hmm. Of course I had to add a little Peter/Sylar in the end, where they come to visit him (Peter's idea) and Samson is surprised to meet Arthur's son. He eventually gives them his blessing, and dies that night. Maybe not happy, but at least content. I CANNOT BELIEVE I KEEP MAKING VERY EVIL CHARACTERS LIKE THIS. I AM WEIRD. And I don't even like Arthur Petrelli. Urgh.

Seventh, Pemma. Still hate it. IT IS NOT THE SHIZ, IT IS STUPID, PLEASE STOP WRITING PEMMA FICS, PLEASE STOP TALKING ABOUT IT, LAURA. AND PLEASE, FOR THE GODS' SAKES, STOP TALKING ABOUT HOW PERFECT YOU ARE, AND HOW YOU'D DEFINITELY SURVIVE A ZOMBIE APOCALYSE. NO WONDER THERE ARE SITES DEDICATED TO HATING YOU. ALTHOUGH, THEY REALLY DO HAVE TOO MUCH TIME ON THEIR HANDS.

Eighth, well, that's about it, I think. Claire/Gretchen has got me more into femslash, I guess. Now I'm a Claire/Gretchen, Claire/Elle, Claire/Monica and Morgana/Gwen shipper as well. Which is nice. I might try my hand at writing a Claire/Gretchen fic at some point in time. Since there is a Claire/Gretchen community over on LJ.

Ninth, I'm sort of nervous about posting my fics over on LJ. I mean, some of those people are really good writers. My fics don't stand a chance against them. Urgh, I'm such a me-hater. I've been that way ever since I read my sister's fics. Sigh.

Tenth, on a better note, I'm writing a Claire-centric fic called Unsure, where she happens to walk in on certain situations involving certain het/slash ships, including Peter/Sylar, Noah/Claude, Lyle/Luke, and possibly Alex/Monica (thank you, James, and also I need to get on writing that) and Sandra/Janice (I really like this for some reason) And I know the last chapter is gonna be Claire/Gretchen so...*shrugs* I keep thinking "Lol, her whole family is gay! WOO!" I know, weird.

Anyways, I should probably get to bed. Hope I haven't completely bored you to tears with my rambling rant.